What I was Feeling - My Affair with Tom

What I Was Feeling – My Affair with Tom
            I feel trapped. I deserve more than this. I deserve to live in a huge mansion in East Egg, not in the top of my auto shop in the Valley of Ashes. I knew the second I figured out George borrowed a suit for our wedding I should have never married him. The truth is I married beneath me, I’m worth way more than George could ever provide. I need a man who is worthy enough to have me. A man who will treat me with love and respect. I found the man of my dreams, Tom Buchanan. Tom marks everything off on my checklist: wealthy, high class, and a man of honor. I was meant to marry Tom, I am the woman that he needs not Daisy. Tom truly loves me, and I love him just as much and if it weren’t for Daisy getting in the way we would be happily married ages ago. I know Tom doesn’t feel anything for Daisy because every time I bring her up, he gets so tense. I still continue to mention her name to make sure he’s done with her, but he keeps claiming he can’t divorce her because she’s “Catholic”. But his marriage won’t stop me from being with him. When we ran off to our apartment in New York, I knew our love for each other was real. He even introduced me to whoever Nick was, but it didn’t matter because that meant he was making our relationship more public. Every now and then I got on Tom’s nerves when I taunt him about Daisy, but I love it when he gets mad. I never would have thought he would go to the extent of punching me so hard that he broke my nose. But he didn’t mean it, he was just frustrated. Tom loves me too much to ever do any harm to me. I kept telling myself that, but it was getting hard to believe. I haven’t heard from Tom in weeks, I was starting to worry about him. Did something happen to him? Did he lose feelings for me? Does he hate me? I had so many unanswered questions but once again I just kept telling myself Tom does love me. He was making it hard for me, I love him so much. I just don’t understand it, why can’t shower me with love like he used to?

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